Heart ramblings

Why is it that we women put our hearts on our sleeve, only to have it slapped off? You'd think that when you've had your heart crushed a few times, you wouldn't put it out there again. You'd figure that the world would be full of heartless women. Women you just don't bring home to Mama. Women that just do what we think that the male species sometimes does to us - love 'em and leave 'em.

But, that's such a HUGE generalization that I'll get slapped for it. Thankfully women aren't like that, we keep putting our hearts out there, sometimes stupidly so, if nothing else than to find someone to help us put it back together.

Then, out of the blue, someone comes and after stomping a bit, realizes that it's your heart they are stomping on, and treads a little more carefully. Really, some guys are stoopid. Some guys just don't think of the consequences of their actions - where we women think of nothing but. Go ahead, prove me wrong! Highschool, university, college, whereever it was, there was a woman who read more into what you guys said or did. A night out with the boys turned into "he doesn't want to spend time with me..." "he's looking for someone else". Crap, why do we do this to ourselves?

But then, there are those guys that are stoopid, but figure out that they can help you, they can be on your side, they can be the one to fix your heart. Then, you have figured out what love is. I know, it sounds sappy, but that's just me. You find someone that you can be "normal" with, you don't have to second guess, and after awhile of hesitating putting it all "out there" you figure that you can, and you'll be safe.

Me, I'm happy now where I am. I've found someone that will tell me point blank that I'm being an idiot, or that they don't agree with me. I don't have to worry that he doesn't want to spend time with me, or that he is "lurking" with someone else. I don't have to worry that women are hitting on him, because in reality I don't think that he would notice it unless it slapped him in the face. And if he does know, he wouldn't do a damn thing to further it!

We women are a strange lot. No wonder you guys have a heck of a time figuring us out. My advice to you? Don't be stupid, think about what you are doing, and be honest - even if it means showing off how stupid you were. And, above all, forgive us for thinking the worst. A good portion of us have had our hearts stomped on, and it's hard to put it out there and make even a small commitment without worrying what the other person is thinking.

Rella

Tuesday Blues

Okay, not really the blues, but more like the blahs. I've got a stack of work to do here, and not an ounce of want to do it. I guess that's what it's like when you are bored, and would rather be doing something else. Things could be good, if this was Thursday :) or Wednesday at 5:00pm. I promised "My Boss" that I would teach an intro class last night, then work today and tomorrow for her, considering that I'm heading for the big city on Thursday/Friday. But, blah! Somedays I just don't feel like working.

But, looking back at the weekend, things were good. I gave Kris's Mr. Tall the a-ok. Yep, he's good enough to date my best friend. At least so far. She's so worried because he lives 6 hours away. Who cares? You're having a great time, he makes you laugh, just live day by day and see what happens. I've really become a person that believes in fate, and destiny. I mean, I think that you can take a wrong turn, but if you are open to what the world is giving you, you just go with the flow. Fighting it, or worrying, will just turn the tide against you. (Man, do I sound like a hippy). "Just go with the flow, man."

Hey, if I didn't believe that, I'd be flipping over the fact that I'm pregnant with baby #3, and the only person that I have to ask "how did you do it", died 4 years ago. Everyone else stopped with 2 kids, or baby #3 came so much later, it was like another family. So, instead, I'm not worrying about it, going with the flow, and just trying to figure out how to get "un-congested" without taking any drugs. I hate having a cold when pregnant. You can't take anything for it.

So, here I am, going with the flow until Wednesday night. When, life will get busy as I pack a bag, do last minute laundry, and generally try to get a good nights rest and be insanely excited at the same time! YAY to Kris's aunt for getting us the tickets to see "We Will Rock You". It's supposed to be a really wierd show, but I couldn't care any less. I mean, I'm leaving hubby with 2 kids to disappear for a night. Can't say I'll be doing that anytime soon. Oh well! :)

Chat with you later. Have a good Tuesday.

Rella

Just another regular Thursday

Life is getting interesting. Okay, not for me, but I can live vicariously through Kris! Yep, she's actually going on a date on Friday. YAY! And, like a good best friend, I will chaperon for a little bit. And since I'm getting a babysitter, we are going all the way and having dinner too. woo hoo! Yes, life is interesting.

As for the pregnancy stuff, things are in the regular swing of things. People think I'm crazy for having baby #3 (hell, I think I'm crazy), but nothing to do but welcome the wee one! I've got a lot of time ahead of me, considering I'm only at 10 weeks. But, that's more time to organize life and get rid of the boxes in the basement that have been driving me nuts. Did I mention that I want a new home???? more space???? argh! For once I'd love to have a playroom for the kids that I can just shut the door on, and sit and relax in my own space - without the toys!

I can't wait for next week when I leave the family behind for a day and go to a play in Toronto. Exciting? You betcha. I can probably guess that this will be the last time (for a while) that I go out of town without the rest of the family, without it being for work (which can be fun too).

Hope everyone has a good Thursday. I'm off to go back to work. I may have to take a peek at my new book I have with me today - Keri Arthur's "Tempting Sin" LOVE her work!

Ciao for now
Rella

Back in the swing

Well, the sickness is over. Well, at least we hope it is. The flu-like bug hit the family and we're just now coming back from it all. I tell ya I haven't felt that dead for years. Add to it the fact that I'm ooo.... 10 weeks pregnant now, and it's all very crazy. The kids were hit, I was hit... now I'm just waiting for hubby to catch something. Damn him and his good immune system!

But, I'm not dead, so it all for the best I suppose. Even went to the gym this morning to get my regular man-handling by my trainer. It's all good. I tell ya, I got a great gift for my b-day. Hubby got me another 5 sessions with my trainer. How many times do you get a gift, then just hand it over to the next guy. (next guy being my trainer). Yep, that's how I felt this morning. That little piece of paper left my hands, and in return I get manhandled for 5 sessions. It's a good deal.

One other small thing to report - I'm heading to the land of the van-owners. Yep, hubby and I have picked up a new/old van for the growning family. Very spiffy indeed! Can't wait to get it tomorrow. Kia Sedona EX - all the bells and whistles (although my 4.5 yr old son can't find the bells OR the whistles). Nice blue van. It's all good! except... it's a mini-van. But, can't expect to drive the 5 of us around in a car anymore, just no room.

Oh well, one more rung in the ladder of life.

Hope your day is a good one!

Rella