Ramblings of a Possessed Homebody

Ramblings of a woman, going crazy, slowly... completely...deeply insane!

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Let me look into my crystal ball.....

Something odd has happened to me, and I really can't explain it. When I was about 2 weeks pregnant (And REALLY didn't know) I went to a huge party and got seriously drunk (Gotta remember I didn't know I was pregnant). The party was for a friend's friend who was heading out of town to go to law school.

So, while totally drunk I sat down with her and chatted for a few minutes. Then, from somewhere... don't know where... I started telling her about her life away from home. I've never done that before, and I don't recall where it came from. But, she wrote it down, and then over the last few years has called my friend to pass it along that most of my "predictions" had come true. Now really, this was a complete stranger.

I've done this once before. A friend's husband was DD one evening for "ladies night out". All the women were dancing, and I didn't feel like it. So, nicely buzzing I went and chatted to this guy and we talked... then I did some "guessing" and told him a few things. Which he totally agreed on. Things that I shouldn't know. And he was a total stranger! (relatively speaking)

So, evidently I've "predicted" a few things to Kris, who has since confirmed with a woman who has "significant talent" in this area. She agrees with me.

Okay, bottom line: I don't so much believe in this, as do people I've chatted with. At least a few things have to happen in order to make this work...
1. I have to be drunk (nope, get nothing while sober)
2. I have to chat with the person for a little bit, and get a feel for them.
3. I have to be in the right mood, feelin crappy, and it doesn't work.

I call it intuition, but maybe it's more than that.

Imagine a stranger in a bar. You sit and chat for a while and start to extrapolate what you know about them into their life. How they are with friends - extrapolate to work ethic, to dealing with kids, to... anything. Well, that's what I feel like I'm doing with people. I chat with them, and then extrapolate into the future. I guess. And I tell them I'm guessing. But my guessing has been correct more often than not!

I can't say that I get "feelings", or "something" tells me. I just blurt out what I think.

So, does that make me psychic... or just a "chic"... :) Dunno...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

He's too sexy for ... this blog....

Okay, I like it.
I really do like it.
Afterwards I'm definately reeling from the high, and just all-over tired.

I'm talking about Cardio-kickboxing. (And I bet your mind was in the gutter...) You really can't beat the workout (530+ Cals today!). I mean, our instructor has us busting our asses trying to keep up with him. And, he keeps instructing - AND talking! Wow, that guy must have like buns and abs of steel. And, well, he is good eye-candy to look at. Nice voice, nice relaxing sexy voice during cooldown stretches. I can still look, but I don't ever plan on ordering from the menu. I have a happy marriage thanks.

Which brings to mind - dating someone who looks beautiful - I'm not sure how I would feel about that. You know what I mean - those men that just look too good to be true. Very, very attractive. A-la Matthew McConaughey.


You should have seen the swarm of women around this instructor after class when he was doing laps. They were all talking and smiling and flipping their hair! I mean at least 5 women . Give it a break! It was starting to remind me of highschool!

But I degress. I'm not sure how happy I would be dating someone that was unbelievably model-like attractive. I would be worried. Don't get me wrong, my man is hot, but I'm just glad that he works in a home office, and not surrounded by attractive women all the time. The woman who dates this man has to have 0% jealousy and 100% trust because he is being swarmed.... regularly... by attractive women... who like to work out too...

I'm so glad that my hubby doesn't even look (or at least that's my little world). He would have to have a woman probably strip infront of him before he realized that they were hitting on him. ... and even then, he would say no...

Yep

And that's the way I like it! :)

Rella

Friday, March 24, 2006

A man????

Okay, I got this from Kris, who got it from someone else, who got it from here...

Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Borneo around the year 1175.
Your profession was that of a handicraftsman or mechanic.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Seeker of truth and wisdom. You could have seen your future lives. Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to develop a kind attitude towards people, and to acquire the gift of understanding and compassion.
Do you remember now?

Nope, but A MAN???? I don't get that one. And, Borneo?? Wow, I had to wait a long time since my past life... 1175. Wonder what people do in the meantime? Just linger in limbo? I wonder if you can limbo in limbo. Maybe cha-cha.

Anyway, silly stuff! At least I can laugh at my(former)self!
Thanks
Rella

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Government Red *?!$*%* Tape

Can someone please explain to me the reason for red tape? Argh! It's drives me nuts! After having a new baby there are so many forms and sheets of paper to fill out, that it drives me nuts! Now, I received the Notice of Birth Registration, NOW I have to apply for a Birth Certificate!!! Can't that be an automatic thing? I mean, your child is born, registered, and *tah-dah* you get a Birth Certificate! Noooo, it has to be more labour intensive than that! And not to mention paying for each step! And, did I menation that my daughter is now 9 months old, and only NOW did I receive the Notice of Birth Registration!!! Come on... 9 months to process it, and really it's just a sheet saying that it's been done, and by the way, you may want to get a birth certificate too!

ARGH!

So, now I do the dance and apply for a Birth Certificate. Thankfully it was done online. They also have a money-back guarantee to have it to you in 15 days! Well, at least someone has woken up in that government building!

Sorry, just a bit annoyed. Other than that little pain in the but, things are going well. Played my squash - almost got my but kicked! (not yet Kris!) and had a yummy lunch! Typical - I ran around so much today helping others or generally looking after kids that I have NO CLUE as to what to have for dinner!! Aaahh! No time to defrost, so I'll either have to make something simple - or do takeout!

Well hope your dinner is better than mine!
Rella

Sunday, March 19, 2006

God, I have it good...

Do you ever have one of those days, where you think, "God, I have it good.."? Unfortunately it usually comes at a time when you are listening to the trials and tribulations of someone else. Well, this is what I was thinking about today as a family friend (I haven't chatted with lately) and I, went for a walk. She was telling me about how crazy her current relationship is (6.5 years)! Scary in some places. I just kept wondering, "why didn't you get out earlier? So, now, she has opened her eyes, and is getting out. She is also telling me that she is about to join the ranks of the devoutly celibate and single.

Ma-s-a-a-n, I wouldn't want to be a person out there looking anymore. Mostly for fear of grabbin' onto the wrong kind of people. (Sorry Kris Starr, I feel for ya!) I mean, it must be hard to go out there and put yourself out for "display". Some people have got it easy. My friend is just gorgeous and fit like crazy - so she's already playing "googly eyes" with the opposite sex at the Gym. ARgh! So much for single... it won't be long!

But all in all it makes me think that I'm pretty lucky. I have a hubby who I'm very happy with (most days :) ) Kids that are by and large pretty good, and finances tha, well, despite being lacking in some places, are keeping us afloat.

I wouldn't have stayed in that relationship for 6 years! Ack! She was really telling me some emotional horror stories. And, to top it all off, she has to stay there for at least a few more months. "Girlfriend get out now!" I say! Finances can be fixed and saved up later, mental health is worth it!

Why is it that you can't see the garbage until you have gone through it! For her sake I hope that she gets out with at least her sanity intact!

Well, that's it for me. I just keep shaking my head.
Hey Kris, give me a shout. Hope your trip was a good one!
To everyone else... see you on the flip side!

Rella

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Meme Four... ack!

Bahhh!! I'm been tagged! ARgh, I'll get you for this one Kris!

Four
4 jobs you have had in your life:
Coffee Chick at Tim Horton's
Advertising Production Assistant
Computer Trainer at Insurance Company
Scrapbooking Designer at local retail store

4 movies you would watch over and over:
XXX
Anything Monty Python-ish! (it's only a wafer thin mint!)
The Princess Bride
Cartoon superhero movies with my kid - great, mindless stuff that always turns out good!

4 places you have lived:
At home (house)
At University (dorm)
With my best friend (in hometown) (in house)
In Sin with my fiance (now husband!) (in apartment)

4 TV shows you [- love to] watch:
CSI (original)
Criminal Minds
(mind is drawing blank - Monday Night - "ghosty" show... errr.. get back to ya)
Sell this House, and any other "fix-up-your-house-before-you-sell-it" shows

4 places you have been on vacation:
Carribean
Finland
East Coast of Canada
Florida

4 websites you visit daily:
Errr... can't get to the computer that often.
Kris Starr
Google
www.sandysscrapbooking.com (because I help keep it up)
http://www.liberator.com/ (Lately, I keep looking at their products.. thinking... hmmm... birthday gift?? ) ]:)

4 of your favorite foods:
Cookie Dough Ice Cream
Ice Cream Cake
Blueberries
Ribs - nice meaty - fall-off-the-bone kinda stuff!

4 places you would rather be right now:
Hot Tub
In Bed sleeping
In Bed with my hubby
Out for Supper - or generally out with friends chatting things up

4 friends you are tagging that you think will respond:
Sorry, my blog is kinda secret, so seeing that Kris tagged me, I can't tag anyone. Wahh... just kidding. :)

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

My attitude adjustment

Oops, didn't realize it had been so long since I last posted. Guess time got away from me. Oh well. Today's thought.... attitude adjustment.

Have you ever noticed that you start your day on a good note, and then one small thing happens, maybe not even that significant, and your whole day starts to go downhill. Maybe you ran into someone who was in a bad mood, and that bad mood just rubs off on you. Maybe it was an expectation not met. Either way, that little thing contributes to a day that wasn't so great.

Well, today that's what happened to me. Nothing major, not even significant, but it started my day off on the wrong foot. I had an expectation this morning from my trainer, and it wasn't met. Nothing big, just a chance to chat with someone that was an "outsider". That expectation was not met, due to an injury, and my day just wasn't right. I noticed myself starting to get into a grump. But then the realization hit - why let that one thing ruin my day? Why let a small fraction of my day swing the rest into turmoil? So, I tried to change my attitude.

Man, it's hard to turn your attitude when you've started down a path. Things just kept wanting to turn bad, but I refused to give in. It's like fighting the invisible dragon, you just gotta do it, or it WILL eat you up. Finally, finally FINALLY my day turned for the better, and so did I. Can you imagine if the world was a place where people attempted to change their attitudes for the better, despite someone else's bad day? I mean, we all have our bad days, but maybe they started out good, but one thing changed it.

I know, I keep harping on the same issue, but it's a big realization for me. And it's something I want to pass along - changing your attitude is merely something you do, not something that is done *to* you.

Hmmm... makes me think of my current struggle with finding myself. I've made a decision to find the real me. To change my attitude towards how I eat, how I spend my free time, to how I view myself in my world. It's not easy, but it can be done. At least, that's the premise I'm working on.

The world may feel like crap some days, but that doesn't mean I have to be the one to pass it along.

Just my thought for the day.

Keep smiling,
Rella

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Sex and the married girl...

Why is it that my mind is constantly in the gutter today? Or, let me rephrase... why is my mind in my bedroom, and not on the task at hand. Err... try again. I can't stop thinking about SEX!

Here's my theory...
1. I'm in my 30's ... supposed to be prime time for women's libido!
2. I haven't been near a birth control pill for over 2 years... Gotta love that!
3. Hormone levels are now coming down to normal levels after having a baby.

but more likely it's the following...

4. My friend Kris Starr has lent me her evil Romantica and Erotica books by Ellora's Cave!
5. I read every moment I can!
6. I'm finally getting enough sleep.
7. I've started to work out and am feeling great about me! (not so much about the body I have, but I'm working on that too!)

But, really do I have anything to be complaining about? Not really. The sex is good, and the opportunities are often! Now, if only I could get my hubby interested in some kinky stuff. I'll work on that too!

Until later, keep the place rockin'!
Rella

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Pain and the evil smiling woman

My knees ache... and I mean ACHE! I worked out again this morning. Somehow 5:30AM wasn't so bad this morning. Bad, but not really bad. I was in this aerobics class that included regular aerobics, step and yoga ball with weights. God, I ache. The instructor just worked us like crazy. I felt like a fool at times, but at least I was trying. The two older gentlemen in the class were there, making me feel better at least! :) If they could try, so could I!

I thought I hated aerobics. Turns out, yep, I do... but only when it's on a tape I can stop. There is nothing you can do in a class but stop and stand at the back. I was not willing to do that, so I stuck it out... and well... I'm going to go again. When Aerobics is on tape, you know you can just turn those cheery smiling faces off with the click of a button. Those women who seem to bounce in all the right places, and not in the others. Those smiling and all too happy people barely sweating while we bust our buns. There is no sympathy in their smiling faces. No understanding during the last few moves where you totally lost track. At least in a class the woman at the front (although still too cheery and toned up) can have pity on that woman goofing up the moves, and can tone things down for you. And maybe, just maybe, there are a few others in the class that are goofing up their moves as well. And, it just doesn't make you feel so bad!

Well, I'm off to do weights tomorrow morning. Ack. I'll see my trainer again. I'll let you know how it goes.

Until then... ciao
Rella

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Happy Birthday... but...

Gak, It's here. It's my birthday. Today is both good and bad... You see, I love having birthdays, but on the other hand, well... I think too much. I think about if someone is planning something, I think about what I would like (usually wayyy to late to give significant people ideas in advance), and I think about my sister.

My sister was 13 years older than I. She was great! I say WAS, because my sister passed away 3 years ago, 2 days before my birthday. So, a birthday doesn't come without thinking of her. My mother probably has a hard time with it too, since everyone was coming over for my birthday when the police showed up at my door, and told us what happened. So, it's a happy day for me, but sad as well.

Why are happy days often surrounded by sad? My hubby's birthday is on the same day that my father was found deceased in his home, AND the same day my hubby's father was found in his home. Both of us have sad occasions around our birthdays. So, what are you supposed to do? I want to feel happy on my day, but I can't stop thinking of my sister. But, at least they are happy thoughts.

My sister was:
a hairdresser (sometimes mine, definately fixed my own mistakes - orange hair!)
a contractor (always inspecting our house work - thanks sis)
but most importantly she looked out for me, and wasn't afraid to tell me that I was going wrong. At the time I hated it, but now I know that she was only looking out for me.

So, here's to me and her. Have one on me!

Rella

Friday, March 03, 2006

6:00AM, the Gym and Birthdays

Good Lord, what was I thinking? 5:30AM came awfully early this morning - specially when you watch the clock at 2:30, 3:30 and 4:30AM. Ah, kids. Can't live with 'em... don't remember the rest. :)

So my morning workout came and went sans attractive trainer, but that's okay. I got my timing down as to how long it will take me to get to the gym, AND I increased some of my weights while I was there. I felt like a bit of a geek with my little notebook and pen, writing and reading all that I needed to remember down, but hey, it was only a bunch of retired men there working out THAT early. So, sorry Kris, but I didn't see any HAWT guys in the weight area at 6AM on a Friday morning, but who's to say that they aren't there other mornings. I mean, hey you know those are the guys with jobs, and they are working out, so it can't be all that bad!! I mean I hate to think of being hit on while at the gym, but it's not unheard of. Hey, not me personally, I'm happily married, but in general, you know? (gak! forgot the ring on the holder last night after I did the dishes! Gotta remember...)

Anyway, life is good, I'm entirely too happy with myself, but there is always something that's coming around the bend to drive me nuts. Why in the world would I think of making SPONGE TOFFEE when I just started working out? Well, It might be a test of the wills, but it might be for the hordes I'm sure that my husband has invited to our home to celebrate my birthday. And, I know something fishy is up... cuz Kris and hubby both said a few things that just didn't sit well.

Will let you all know Saturday night.... okay, maybe Sunday. I'm the worst person in the world to throw a birthday party for... especially Surprise party, cuz I suspect everything. Not to say that I wouldn't love to have a surprise party, but just that to date, not a one person has even tried to put one together that I haven't sniffed out. I know, I'm bad... but that's just me.

So, Kris if you are reading this, be careful! I'm onto you!

(let's hope that I'm not making a fool of myself and blabbering on for not!)

Rella

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Sexy - here I come!

Dadgummit! I did it. I signed up for my membership at the local Y, and got me-self a personal trainer. Yeppers. Who knows how long that will last (the $ for trainer), but at least I've done it. I've also committed myself to working out on Wednesdays and Fridays at 6:00AM. God, what have I got myself into! But, shit, it's time.

No more excuses.
No more jelly belly.
No more ice-cream (MY birthday is the only exception)
No more wondering if I can find something in my size at THAT store!

NO MORE!

I'm hoping to be thinner by next year. I'm giving myself a year to see this thing through. Next birthday, or bust dah-ling! I'm strong (even my trainer says so), but I gotta get rid of that weight, and I have to push myslef - no matter what!

So, Friday morning.... 6AM... gak! Let's hope I can keep this up... cuz SEXY... here I come!!!

Rella